Love, True Love

Pretty much nothing about pregnancy and childbirth went the way I had envisioned or planned it.  Nothing.  I planned to stay pregnant for 40 weeks and be driven to the hospital by the nervous father-to-be after going into labor at home.  So picturesque!  What I got was an emergency c-section after being on hospital bed rest.  I didn’t plan to have emergency surgery 10 weeks into my pregnancy and fear legitimately that my daughter would not survive it.  I didn’t plan to miss every single preparation class I had enrolled in because I was on bed rest.  I didn’t plan to have a car accident.  I didn’t plan to be admitted to the hospital at 28, 32, and 34 weeks.  I didn’t plan to see the inside of the NICU. 

I didn’t plan to miss her when she is asleep.  I didn’t plan to spend entire days worrying about her bowel habits.  I didn’t plan to love her this much.

So I had a baby…

In May. 

And then I got really busy.

Because I was taking care of a baby.

But now I should blog about it all. 

More to come later!

Hello

Baby Girl -

It has become increasingly apparent over the past week that we will meet you ever so slightly earlier than we had planned.  

The doctors are pleased with you baby girl.  Each sonogram and monitoring session proves that you are strong, growing, and maybe more than a little feisty.  The specialist on Monday said that you seemed to be “posing” for the sonogram pictures.  Because…of course you were.

Mommy’s body, on the other hand, seems to be kind of done with being pregnant.  I’m so thankful that we have gotten you to a “safe place” in your development.  However, at this juncture…I can’t help but feel like I’m failing you.  You deserve 5 more weeks to grow on the “inside” and I’m not totally sure we can give you that.  I’m doing every thing I can to keep you safe and sound.

I can’t wait to meet you.  But as much as I want to hug you and kiss your little cheeks I think I’ll miss being pregnant with you.  Every single day of this  pregnancy has been special and blessed…I enjoy every kick.  We will always have a special bond.

I wish I had taken more pictures during this pregnancy.  Made more journal entries.  Recorded more of my thoughts and emotions.  I hope I remember every single minute of this.  Even the scary parts.

Love,

Mom

 

Week 32

32 weeks?  Where has the time gone???

How far along: 32 weeks…a few days

Total weight gain: 5-6. I’ve for sure made up the weight I lost when I had surgery.

Maternity clothes: Um, Yes.

Sleep: Sleep is hit or miss…  I find myself making several trips to the bathroom at night.

Best moment this week: Celebrating at a baby shower with my family!

Miss anything: Hmmm…not that I can think of!

Movement: Yes!

Food cravings: Nothing that I’ve noticed.

Symptoms: Nothing severe. A little swelling for sure.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope.

Looking forward to: Hitting 37 weeks.  We had a little BP scare around 28 weeks…and a minor car accident at 29 weeks.  At this point…I’ll be really…REALLY excited when baby girl is “full-term” and could be delivered safely if need be.  Until then…I’m doing my best to avoid being in any more fender benders and/or making any more trips to L&D at the request of my doctor.

Goings On

I got (and sent) my first Cara Box this month! 

I sent a box to Ashlee and received a box from Jodi.

I had such a great time opening my box!  It had been a LONG day when I came home to find a sweet little package waiting.  (Side note…I LOVE MAIL.) 

Excuse my cruddy photography…but here’s a picture of my goodies!

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I love love love the lemon print bag and the reusable snack bag.  (Excellent use of the theme Jodi.)  And oddly, I’ve ALWAYS wanted to try the “fancy” Meyers dish soap.  Also included…little pots in which I’m going to try (really really hard) to grow sunflowers, basil, and tomatoes!  And, a little day planner and note pad! 

Thanks for the package Jodi!  It came at the PERFECT time. 

I’m hoping that by participating in blog related festivities such as this that it will encourage me to update my blog a little more often.  Fingers crossed!

Cara Box

I’m doing this…and I’m pretty excited!

Week 27.5

How far along: 27 weeks, 4 days

Total weight gain: 5-6. I’ve for sure made up the weight I lost when I had surgery.

Maternity clothes: Um, Yes. I actually bought some maternity leggings last week and have considered trying to wear them to work as actual pants. Those of you that have heard my rants about appropriate business attire will realize this means I’m desperate!

Sleep: I’ve been sleeping GREAT!

Best moment this week: Feeling her move a lot. The Husband can feel her now too…and sometimes even SEE her moving!

Miss anything: Hmmm…not that I can think of!

Movement: Yes!

Food cravings: Nothing that I’ve noticed.

Symptoms: Nothing severe. I have noticed that my feet hurt at the end of the day if I wear heels. But you know…maybe I should give in and wear flats!

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope.

Looking forward to: Oddly I’m looking forward to my gestational diabetes screening next week. Crazy, yes? I have decided that I’m totally going to rock it. I’ve failed pretty much every single test I’ve been given for the past six months…and I’ve decided that this is going to be different. Fingers crossed!

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